right now you are beside me.
someday, when it ends perhaps I will think back to this, to this precious moment of ordinary bliss shmeh - Atlas
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I fear that taking a break
has caused me to slip and fall. it is so hard to get a grip to begin climbing again. but I will try, and try, and try. so it is, so it goes - Atlas sleep closes in,
weighted curtains on the corners of my vision. I will try again, try again, try again tomorrow. so it is, so it goes - Atlas all that creeping unease, it
hides beneath my bones. but you are here and I am here knees just barely brushing and we will still be here when the credits roll and the lights come on. nothing in this world is certain (except perhaps the endings) but you are here and I am here and we were here when the lights came on - Atlas the future hangs from spiderwebs
it is so strong, and yet so thin you are so strong, and yet so thin the eight legged master of all that exists creeps ever closer for one final kiss the weight of our lives, the strength of this thread but when it breaks what happens then I'm praying now for spiderwebs perhaps some string anything right now I'd take anything messing around with some song lyrics I thought of a while ago - Atlas the people I love have this
quiet magic, where they somehow turn bad days into good ones without even being aware of it. today didn't really start out as a bad day but it certainly had the potential to be one--and for so many reasons, because of so many people, it wasn't - Atlas things were all going pretty well
until the rogue wave came. now I lie bobbing on my back, just another piece of debris among the wreckage. in a minute or two I will make my way over to some twine floating a few feet away and I will start to tie things together again. I think I will try to make something new. something that might last longer. yes, in a minute or two. yeah - Atlas I remember when I was young
we had a game of balancing plastic pizza toppings on top of a platter. just keep adding, adding, adding until the whole thing comes crashing down. that's a little bit like how the world feels now-- everything is going great, it's going fine, it's going down-- this feels more pessimistic than it is? it's just about doing so many things and then when one thing slips, it tends to not actually just be one thing but a thingalanche - Atlas I feel horribly exposed
by everything, even normal conversations. it is like my skin is peeling back, trying to get away from my bones. all in all a wonderful feeling - Atlas lately I've been feeling
a little bit too overconfident, a bit too ready to whip out advice like somehow I've got it all figured out. I don't, most of it's luck. sometimes I wish I remembered that before I opened my mouth. ho hummm - Atlas |
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