the world,
it will ask for more than you will ever be able to give. perhaps there is something to be learned from the effort. in the end, it's always hard to say. idk (I'm tired T.T) - Atlas
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an ending comes,
and for once it seems I am filled with more gratitude than sorrow-- I am not relieved, but I am content, at least for now. it was what it was, it was good, I loved it and I love it still. if I could speak back in time to my younger self I do think I would tell her that it's what she's hoping for. maybe not her wildest dreams, but this is warmer somehow. softer. real - Atlas eternity coils around
my little finger. I'm not quite sure what to do with it, though it seems to know what it wants to do with me idk man - Atlas and at last,
a break, a rest. even though it may not be for long, I feel my heart strengthen in my chest. so it is, so it goes - Atlas it abates,
at least a little. my muscles unwind. I am sure more rains will come but tonight, the skies are clear. wah - Atlas I keep hitting
the same problems, again and again. desperately, earnestly, I want to go to sleep for once having done everything I need to. yeah - Atlas I keep making mistakes,
fumbling even when I apologize and try to make it right, I find myself arguing with the jury inside my head idk (I am getting tired of fumbling though) - Atlas the midnight oil burns,
and it burns low. I'll admit it now, I don't want to find out what happens when it runs out. ...borrowing sleep from my future self will SURELY end well - Atlas I say something
and flinch away, thinking suddenly that I should not have spoken. but I exist, I am allowed to exist. so it is, so it goes - Atlas all too often,
it seems, I recognize a truth but do not learn it until I hit it face-first again, and again, and again. learn it well enough to quote at other people but not enough to apply it in your life, it seems - Atlas |
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