o regret,
teach me how to learn from you instead of running. I am so, so tired of running. hm - Atlas
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o faith,
let me not lead you astray, let my borrowed time be wisely spent, returned with interest. may I be good at handling difficult situations & better at not needlessly getting into them in the first place - Atlas if only I could just know
that things would turn out alright in the end. well, maybe I do. my story is not the only one to tell, and even when there is no one left to tell stories the world will go on. the dust will settle, someday. and maybe that will be alright. and yet at the same time--rage, rage, against the dying of the light. - Atlas my mind yearns to scratch at unsolved problems
like an itch I am slowly learning how to gently pull my hands away, to give the wound some time to heal. bluhh - Atlas and when I dream a dream tonight
it will be a dream of you, for you a dream where things don't go as planned but still turn out alright ...I'm sorry. - Atlas sometimes I forget
that thinking is a tool like any other, with all the faults and limitations that entails. my thoughts are all I know, I live inside my head. but there is a certain saying about hammers and nails bluhh - Atlas tell me what I’m supposed to do,
tell me I’m on the right track. I don’t want to die, I’m lost, I don’t know how to find my way back. the mind reaches for certainty, again and again - Atlas maybe infinity is math’s way
of saying “forever”. how fitting, that even in this language of absolutes we still don’t know if it’s real or not. bluh - Atlas today,
again, I ask myself to do the best I can. and the best I can means facing what I am afraid of. and what I am afraid of is that I can do the best I can and it still won't be enough. hrmm - Atlas I am afraid,
and trying to hold myself gently through it all so I can find the strength to respond instead of run away. I am here. maybe that will be enough. and even if it isn't, I am still here. unless I get hit by a truck. at which point frankly I will have other problems to worry about - Atlas |
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