things are going well,
overall. I don't know how to talk about it. I keep using the same words over and over, only to watch them fumble predictably in hindsight. shmeh - Atlas
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sometimes I become so excited
my tongue skips across my thoughts like a record jumping. If I lose you, I am sorry. I swear the song really was beautiful, once. why'd I go and make it wistful at the end XD - Atlas the song quietly winds
around my mind, my heart. I do not even know if I believe the words, but still some part of me sings. hmm hmm hm-hm hmm hmmmmm~~ - Atlas to be honest,
I don't know what will happen. in fact I don't know much of anything aside from the fact that we are here, now, aiming for the brightest future we can manage. hm - Atlas the spider dies alone.
alone, yes, but not unmourned for some part of him lives within me still, the spindly, searching arms always reaching for quiet, isolated places. trapped in the tub. chasing a roach. I am changed because of him, however slightly. o7 Gregory, you were a real one - Atlas somehow, with you
all my worries fade away like frost beneath a gentle rain. ho hum (I am so very grateful) - Atlas fail, again.
know that you cannot succeed at this task and fail again, because the conditions for victory are learning, not success. fail again. know that you cannot succeed at this task but that you have to try if you want this exercise to mean anything. try again. fail, again, knowing that even as you fail you win. bleh - Atlas the storm presses outside,
but I am safe and tucked away. hazelnuts and dried blueberries have never tasted so sweet. thank you, for the kindnesses you've given me - Atlas the days pass by so quickly now.
I look forward, always to the relief from stress the deadlines looming overhead but this is my life. I won't get it back. ho humm - Atlas everything frightens me, yes
everything, everything or maybe it's just one big thing that seeps into the rest. woo - Atlas |
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