I did not mean
to make you scared of me, little spider. in fact I did not know what that dance of yours meant, only that you followed me whenever I changed chairs at the table to give us both some space. you were brave, little spider. you faced your death and I flinched from the ghost of pain. rest well, little spider. I hope the world makes you feel safe. hm - Atlas
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these days I am
rising with the sun, I am continually becoming someone who I didn't think I was, someone who I didn't think I could be. I am lucky that these changes are usually for the better. usually. ehh - Atlas in all honesty
I feel like I am fumbling my tasks, the way I speak to you everything is too much or too little. clunky and clumsy and inefficient. but I am here. alive. learning. and as long as I have the chance, I will try again. ehh - Atlas I am too tired
to think much of anything, I have started losing seconds to each blink. I have tamed the dragons of today. more will come tomorrow. but that is a problem of the dawn, for now I shall lay down and rest. I just want a break man T.T (or at least enough of a pause to come back to things with a fresh mind and heart) - Atlas the little spider on the table
turned to look at me several times, jerky motions sending that tiny band of eyes over and up, towards mine. how strange, that you should look at me. that you should know where to look. made me forget the stuff I was worrying about for a few minutes so that was nice - Atlas & so the world unfolds.
I unfold with it, learning how to occupy the space that has always been filled by another. but I am not alone, I know this even when I am by myself. I SWEAR I had a poetic line that I really liked today and I just completely forgot it T.T - Atlas so it is,
so it goes. the long road, the sudden exit. the clouds kiss the mountains goodbye. the shaky skater departs from the edge of the rink. the hermit crab sheds its shell and crawls, exposed, to a different home. feeling a lot of things, and idk if this managed to capture it. I do really like "long road, sudden exit", tho perhaps the execution here could be better? idk how though. you can always return, but you can never go back. - Atlas there is a bird,
darting between the bricks in a wall on a fine spring-summer evening. and at last I understand at least a little of the things I hear and cannot see. meh, wanted to use the image but not sure what the best way is to use it - Atlas I hope I don't
waste my life. I hope I do something good with my time. it's an old wish, but a recurring one. hm - Atlas |
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