I don't know.
I think I may have made it worse. that is, all too often the unintended consequence for trying. not trying can have this effect too, of course, but it is harder to see the claw marks of not-doing than of things already done. ehhh - Atlas
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and the crowd clapped and cheered
as they sang a bitter song about loneliness and the inescapable distance between two people and the fierce renunciation of hope. they sang, together hand in unolveable hand? ehhhh. saw some neat analysis and then listened to it and now it is On Loop in my brain. yippee - Atlas maybe the buddhists were right
or our science is wrong but as all evidence currently points we really were all the same thing once you and me the couch, the table everything and everyone we're scared of. the air. we were all in the same place. the same time. we were one. and now everything is different --and that's not bad-- but as I sat next to you and wondered if our atoms ever brushed past one another at some early point in the universe I realized they had. we are all so much more deeply connected than we realize. hum hum. - Atlas the impossible weight
hasn't quite lifted, but shifted I think I can find some breathing room now to recoup, and put the sky back on my shoulders. it just loves the earth, that's why it falls. I love the earth too, that's why I stand. I feel like this poem started talking about two different things using the same metaphor (is it layered symbolism or just an inability to stay on topic XD) - Atlas I don't know.
something about strength and weakness and how sometimes we make the same mistakes over and over again. I guess I'm lucky to have so many chances to choose something different. I know there are many who never get that chance. hm - Atlas I am tightrope walking
between two great towers and from the ground you shout "you're doing great!" it's true, I have not fallen yet but I have half the rope ahead of me. the line wobbles. don't falter. keep moving. bluhh - Atlas to you, my mother
I dedicate this day to the warmth of your smile and your love and your laughter I wish I had better words, but they all seem to fall away in the face of this, the truth - Atlas the tiredness comes
like a heavy blanket draped over my mind. I am not myself. I am myself I am I eh - Atlas I am proud of her,
my sister. she has come so very far. and the road to get there has not been easy, but perhaps that is the bravest part. congrats on your graduation! proud of ooo - Atlas everything is
changing again. I don't know what to do. I just got used to this-- or maybe that's just nostalgia talking. my heart is soft and sticky. it loves what it loves. and it cannot stay attached to any one thing forever. ehh - Atlas |
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